a little catch up
I've been blogging since 2012, never consistently though. I have a mind that wanders, not always in a positive way. This summer I got myself so, so down. This is something I didn't see coming, but it seems without routine - I feel lost.
Anyway, I like to regret and look back on the past a lot. That's a flaw I've always had but one I am trying to control. Yes, I haven't blogged much this summer at all, I'm not going to dwell on that. I'm just going to start fresh.
I thought about changing Rush & Teal's name, but after all these years I can't imagine not having Rush & Teal in my life. So here I am, same me, same blog but a better attitude.
oh hello, it's been a while
Eeek. Soz. It's been bloody ages hasn't it? I thought I had it all going since February, I was consistent and passionate - I loved my content and then suddenly the creativity went dry and I shied away from all that I knew. Summer has been hard on me, It's my first summer as a uni student and I felt absolutely lost. I've never had to deal with this much time off (first world problem I know). I've been solidly working since I can remember, so my lack of purpose sent me in a spiral.
Turns out for me blogging comes best to me when I'm busy, but without university or a part-time job. I was poor, not doing much and therefore had zero motivation to write. Luckily, I've come out of that deep pit of misery now - I have a job, I'm off to America in a month and after that back to my busy university lifestyle. Things are good, and I'm ready to write.
What's to the plan, stan?
I tried to re-brand and go forward with Rush & Teal so many times but always ended in bitter disappointment as it wasn't the brand I had envisioned. I needed a clean slate, a new direction and a bit of excitement.
Rush & Teal I always saw as a business (a very small, slightly shitty one at that), written from my perspective without much clear direction. It was an amazing part of my life, offered me many lovely opportunities and created me a brilliant audience. Going forward I need a little more of a forgiving structure, I think the intense ideas of scheduling, posting days etc. always put too much pressure on what was essentially a hobby. So now, I need to listen to the lessons I've learnt about myself, more specifically myself and structure and create something that works for me. I'm going to go back to posting three times a week, attempting those days to be Monday, Wednesday and Friday but cutting the pressure a little. If I don't post, I don't post - life happens right?
honesty, consistency and fun
I've always tried to be transparent when it comes to reviews, products etc. on my blog but when It comes to my life, sometimes I shy away from talking about feelings. So, for me I'm going to concentrate on helping myself out a little. I want to be able to feel like I can be honest if I'm not feeling okay to blog one day, or if something amazing has happened - that I can share it. I definetly want to bring back a little personality to my blog. So firstly I'll be working on honesty.
Secondly, I want to be consistent. Not in the way that I'm going to kill myself to get a post out, but I want to be consistent in my presence - If I can't get a post up for whatever reason I don't want to shy away from all my media channels. I just wanna be like 'Oh hey, I'm hungover so no post soz. What kind of pizza shall I order?' rather than my usual 'Oh shit, hide from all social channels cos I'm failing'. So my next aim is consistency, specifically in my presence.
Fun! I want this to be fun again, I don't want the nasty niggling feeling of pressure. I want to enjoy what I create, when I create, if I create. All on my own terms. So here's to having fun.
let's do this!
I'm so ready for this. Hope there's some people still on board to join the journey as such. I promise that I'm not going anywhere this time, and that sometimes posts might just be a general chit chat but there will be posts. Finally.
Here's to a fresh start!